my journey continues

The first thing I saw when I opened my eyes was the crisp bright blue of the sky through the partially opened blinds ... a soft gentle breeze from the open window smelled clean and sweet. I knew that today was a day of healing.

It was time for me to turn over the pieces of my life and start the process of the healing of my inner spirit.

I let go of so much mental garbage in the past few days that I'm empty, I had so many thoughts and feelings that I was completely confused. I felt lost and worn. I rather liked the feeling last night to “feel” the loss and despair, I can only go up from here was my thinking in the midst of pain. Thank the good lord for showing me the way, my way.

It's time now that, I let the spirit of who I am to swell and fill the empty spaces that linger within.

…how to fill myself?
the essentials in which to build a new foundation of beliefs for my life.

Spiritual Nourishment—

Love and Laughter
Kindness
Hope
Understanding
Peace
Serenity

I shared something today.... with a friend and learned something myself.

“Find Happiness in your home.
Find accomplishment in your work day.
Find fulfillment in daily activities.”
This really was a reminder to me of a message that I had received sitting in a room meditating months before.

In the past month or so I have been so consumed with keeping the pieces of my new life together, ‘trying’ to hold on to what I had that there was no time for anything else.

Work. Sleep. Grieve
Work. Sleep. Grieve.

That's not life.

That's a self-induced jail sentence. I have made the time for me. I have stopped trying and started believing and doing.

Life seems to repeat itself over and over before you finally hear what it says.

“this isn’t working for you”

God is always talking, it was just me that wasn't listening.

Often I discover a little too late that the flight has been redirected by the autopilot in my head and I'm in the first class section of life cruising at high altitude on my way to a place of pain.
Greif has a great way of getting my attention.

It starts a small crack in my unconscious thinking patterns; One second in which I can fully take a look at what I am doing and why I am even doing it.

That's what this change is about.

Keeping the moment in my line of vision; allowing myself to steer my own course through life instead of running on the faulty beliefs that have just not worked … “Greif is out to get me.” – Not today!

With all my tools in heart and my new way in mind I am ready to stand up!

Today was a day of embracing the love, laughter, blue skies and sunshine that is everywhere.
In every moment.
In every smile.
In every sweet breeze.
In every warm kiss of sunshine on my face.
The sparks of hope within me have set ablaze my willingness to continue in this process.

My persistence … a roll of thunder opening every door of possibility.

I am finding my truth is getting stronger … my belief is getting bigger … my inner strength is a victory to successful living.

It began with a question I asked and an answer that came to me “Do you believe in me?” I was asking God. Over and over my question is answered in my daily life – through my husband, my children, my mothers, my fathers, my family, my friends, my own self. His belief in me began the process of me believing in myself.

I am in the process of succeeding!